Over the last 9 years or so, an old high school sweetheart (I’ll call him Diesel) found me and we have kept in touch. He’d call or text me every so often and we’d call/text for a couple of days, but then it would fizzle out. I’m not sure why (probably because Tom was distracting me) but the flame just wouldn’t reignite.
Well, about 2 months ago, I began to see Diesel in a different light, and the fire was ignited. It started as a slow burn, and now it’s blazing. He called me, and things just took off from there!
Diesel is wonderful! Like a breath of fresh air! For real! He’s loving, attentive, charismatic, a gentleman, and he’s TAKING CONTROL!! And I LOVE it!!! He’s making plans for us AND my children, and he’s getting shyt done! He’s not waiting around for ME to do shyt, HE’S taking care of it. And, I LOVE it!!!
I’ve always wanted to relinquish everything to someone else, but never felt anyone was worthy or had earned my submission. But, he is definitely earning it! I’m not worried about submitting because he’s doing things to show me that he’ll take care of me AND my kids.
Now, there’re no butterflies in my stomach when I see him or when he touches me. I mean, he turns me on, and I’m beginning to care for him deeply. However, I’m reminded of what my grandmother used to tell us: “Find you a man who loves you more than you love him, and he will take great care of you. You don’t want butterflies, you want security.” And that’s exactly how I feel when I’m with him. Safe and secure.